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When you doubt my love, it's like you are saying that you have made a mistake in believing me. That you do not trust yourself, that you have not made the right choice in choosing to love me. That you doubt yourself. When you tell me how insecure you feel around me, it is like you are saying that you are insecure of yourself. That since you feel the tendency to be unfaithful, you think that I would have the same tendency. When I choose to love you, I believe in my choice to love you. That I have made the right decision. When I know for a fact that I have no interest in being unfaithful, I believe you would feel the same. But if you do, I do not blame you, but myself for loving you.

Do not doubt my love, for I very much look forward to greater things, with you.

Greening

I am not, ever a salad person. I mean, come on! Who the heck fills their tummy with leaves and teasing little vegetables? Plus they are too crunchy to be considered a meal, a snack maybe. When you order a salad, you are making a healthy choice, not a choice of suffering. But that's the mind-set of most people, which is why they make stupid salads. And they make you believe that you should be feeling good about yourself so you think it's okay to pay the price it is not worth. Think 3 cubes of cheese & pitiful shreds of chicken. But you see, this salad, this amazing salad from Chilli's, really really blew me away.

Every meal is meant to be : appetizing, a good combination, tasty & filling. A salad could be a starter, or a meal. But it is only okay if you give me both options. So this Quesidilla Explosion Salad is the perfect salad, as a meal. There is the crunchiness not to worry, sufficient & tasty chicken, non-overwhelming dressing on the side, and so many different textures & flavors to it that every bite is as good as new. I've had it twice and it is just as amazing.

It is a little pricey but I think it is worth the effort put in to make you enjoy your every bite, be full, and not feel guilty.
That is one happy girl right there.

I wished that I had the strength to stop the bad that I am doing, or the arrogance to not care at all.

"So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth."

My Valentino

One year ago, I was shipped to Penang for a mini vacation with a lady to meet her scarily-described daughter. I felt like I was going on a horrible blind date. Exactly today, Jolene and I have been friends for a year. On the 13th Feb last year, we surprised each other by me being a whole lot younger than her expected mom's 'friend' and her being a whole lot nicer than the monster I thought (you know I love you).

It being one of the most vulnerable days of the year for us women, we celebrated Valentines together, again! I must say that it is a blessing. This whole trip for me was unplanned, parents randomly wanted to visit family friends, so we took a midnight train to this city which I find myself liking a lot. Well actually, just a few days ago before this Jo called and was on the verge to run away, to me of course. And the next thing you know, I called her back and said hold on, I'm coming!

Now here is the fabulous Jo. She inspires me with her courage to love and to be loved back. Also what I love most about her is her willingness. To teach, to drive people around, to help people shift, to play her responsibilities, to lift your spirits up, to listen, to help people out with infections, to be a good lover and friend. I appreciate you. Cheers to our friendship.