Never enough

(via krizahn)

I got this from my cookie jar. Damn, we need reminders like these on our walls.

On the highway

170. No, that is not my weight, but of the speed i was in, (km/h) in a car driven by my brother. I'm not saying that he's not a good driver, he is an excellent driver. But as much as I like to boast about my fondness for speed, I cannot help but to imagine the outcome if something goes wrong in that split second. Will we survive? And believe me, I've got the wildest imagination. And then there was that time when we went on that crazyassshit ride at the fun fair. *&^$^%$#  I told the Lord above, if this is the way you want me to go, so be it. Needless to say, I do not trust machines (okay mebbe i'm a wee bit of a scardy cat). Silly as this may sound, my miracle would be that road accidents never happen again. Nobody deserves to die that way. But who I am to say, He is the life giver and taker. Am I afraid of death? I don't want to be. I read this quote once by Anais Nin, "People living deeply have no fear of death". Are you afraid of death?

Hello darkness my old friend

She is the bomb.
Like big bada boom bomb.
We have friends to learn from and to share with.

Sweet and bad things

I was thinking that day about how a few of my bestfriends are from broken families, and they are such beautiful strong people. Anyway, this is gonna sound weird but I've been hearing voices and seeing things. I would hear people calling my name and thinking that I saw someone when nobody actually is there. It's like I get shadowy glances of people or something. This has been going on for a couple of days. Am I going cookoo for real? Because it's kinda cool.

Make Martinis Not War

This is one of my shirts which is badly out of shape but with this really cool saying.
I'm peacelovin'. You?

You have got to be kidding me

I was just wondering, if anyone else feels the same as i do about our local sense of humor.









I mean, come on!

ps / I would anytime rather enjoy Felicia See's adorable potatomedy! Check her out.

If you can see it then you'll understand

I'm having one of those feelings when you think there is something you're suppose to do, but just can't recall what is it. It's rather disturbing. Also feelings like:

- When you're all packed, but you keep thinking there is something you might have forgotten.
- When someone says, "I've got a surprise for you". And they make you wait.
- When you can't remember a particular name of someone or a song/ artist/ movie.
- When you get false alarms for a sneeze.
- When the soul of your feet is itchy.
- When someone tells you the end of a movie you havent watch. Or who dies, it's all the same.
- When you get mini vomits. *Got that term from How I Met Your Mother. Barney is one hilarious soab

Wanna add to the list?
Now, what is it that i hafta do.. hmmm

Its the season

Be ever ready to give love, be ever ready to forgive. Life is too short for anything else.

And for the haters,
we've got shotguns.
joke

Its about time

So let me tell you a little somethin somethin'. Life isn't always about you alone. If it was, God wouldn't have created him, her, she, it or the Jonas brothers. So take your time to listen a bit more. No matter how bad your situation is, someone else is doing even worse. And this my friends, I keep reminding myself too.

Well, this has been nice

Home

Hey you guys, just so you know, i am not happy or glad to be back, and neither did i miss home. I don't belong here and even as a kid, i just found out, that I would walk towards the sea whenever i was at the beach. I was hardly 2 years old then and remember how i used to wish that i was a mermaid? I am suppose to have fins and I belong with the fishes I am very certain of that. Anyway, we spent a week on the island! It's the longest so far, it was also due to certain unfortunate circumstances. But was i glad!
We started our journey at around 9.40pm on the 12th. Well, we went with dad's car and Russel's new second-hand Volvo. We were a bit uncertain about the durability of the car at first and well, our expectations were met at about 4.50am at Perak. All was well as we were all experienced breakdown-ers. While waiting for help from the mechanics, we took pictures and napped till bout 8 plus in the morning and then decided to have breakfast. That char siew is probably the pinkest i have ever eaten. At 1030 / 13th we continued our journey. After Greek, at bout 3pm the damn vehicle died again. My dad said the car is too old for a young driver like my brother. The boys sat in the car while it was towed to the workshop and we got a taxi after that and only reached Kuala Besut at about 8plus at night. We had our dinner then rested at Samudera motel since we missed the evening boat. 14th, freaking excited. Had our breakfast, I didn't eat too full cause I wanted to be comfortable during the boat ride. I've always loved the boat ride. Preggers sister in law was a little concerned bout the bumpy-ness though. Lucky baby dont you think. And then we reached. WE FREAKING REACHED. &!@#$%!!!!!!! After settling the luggage etc, i just stripped ( I wore my swimsuit that morning itself ) and we went to see our dive master & instructor. Me and lil bro started our course right away. The theory part made us a wee bit sleepy (you know, after all the traveling). But there was this other instructor there whom was quite a looker it was impossible to feel bored. ( I am half joking ) This is one of the evenings. There are almost 600 pictures, so it's a little difficult to choose. After the 3 days course, we did the test, passed, and got our open water diving licenses!! It was quite tiring cause we dived a few times in a day. I don't have much words to express how it feels but the underwaters is breathtaking. The feeling is just priceless. My elder brothers got their licenses a couple of years ago, so it was nice to dive with all of the boys. The rest of the days were spent diving in different locations, swimming and snorkeling in clear blue waters, sun basking, eating, volleyball, canoeing and ahhh just all the good stuff. During the evenings the boys would play volleyball with the locals, sister in law and Chelly even got their hair braided! I really am not trying to boast, writing this kills me as i remind myself of it. But that's just it, i want to remember all of this. :( I find it difficult though, am not a good diary writer. Mom was such a gem, she is still and will always be the best cook. We even had steak one of the nights! We would either dine under the trees during the afternoons or by the beach at night. There was hardly anytime to be bored as parents and bros were suddenly addicted to Gimrami, Chelly and I would lie down under the stars. Wellllllll, I gotta say, you see lovers everywhere. Evey part of the world, people are in love, falling in love, searching for love, or hoping for love. Anyway! I am not going to be sentimental now. Sissy and her collectibles - I am usually not busy when on vacation, but this time it was different in a way. The most interesting dive we did was at Sugar Wreck, i was told that it is a wrecked ship that was shipping sugar. There were sea urchins everyfreakinwhere but we saw really a lot of beautiful fishes! And huge ones! The baracudas were kinda freaky they seem to stare at you a lot. The living you see 60feet under is very different from the norm, there are times when i hafta control myself to not touch them. They just seem so.. fascinating. To be able to dive around and under a ship wreck was definitely something, though there weren't much history behind it. I hope in time, i'd be able to get an underwater casing for my cam so i could share it with you guys! Sugar Wreck was on the last day, in the morning. And then came the worse part, leaving. ..... ...when we were at Greek, I stared outside the window and waited patiently for any appearance of elephants for almost 2 hours. I was readily prepared to be overwhelmed, since bro and sarah was fortunate to have had a glimpse of them though just for a sec on the way back, the previous trip. ...
...... we got home at 5am in the morning and i went to sleep at 7am. I swear i heard waves.

Seaside inspire

I woke up a few times in the mornings with the feeling of being punched to the heart. Yes, that's the feeling you get when you loose something. I haven't been having a very good month, though i don't believe in luck. Welllllllllllllllll pumpkins, I'm very prepared to put all that aside for this island trip. I always tell people that my family is not traditional at all, we don't celebrate much. But this, seems to be becoming a very, very good family tradition. No objection to that! Sooooooo, imma leave for my second home and see you donkeys next week! Don't worry, I will definitely show you what you are gonna miss. You're most welcome :)

New York

I thought about this today, that
We should not make up our minds about someone, because that way, we leave no room for improvement.

You don't know and you never cared to know

I gave my dogs coke (i meant the drink) and yeah they didn't like it. And i actually forced open Nala's mouth to drink 100 plus cause i wanted her to like it. Anyway, did I tell you that my mom would prefer for me to be fat (or fat-ter) and ugly so that she wouldn't hafta worry about guy trouble? Well mom, fear not cause boys fear me. Hah! Muaha! Muahaha! Well, I don't really blame them actually, i find me scary at times. I mean seriously, what the heck is wrong with her? Such a freako. So yeap, this is a picture of me and a baby's hand before i ate her. Enjoy. Whatever that's left of it.

One of these days

" Aren't we just a ray of fucking sunshine."

Saturday Busking

Some pictures from the busking concert by Cross Fusion last weekend. Good times!

Spreading love jam on burnt toast

Last weekend when i was on the way home from KL in the bus, this girl stranger came and sat beside me. So, the usual comfortable thing for us to do is to mind our own business right? Well, then i think Michael Jackson's song Man in the mirror (freaking weird-ish) popped into my mind or something and i told myself okay, get out of your comfort zone and make this world a better place. (don't laugh, thank you) I then took out my headphones, smiled and said "Hi, are you from Malacca?" She turned and gave me a quick yes then continued to look ahead.
5 minutes later, she changed her seat.

Well hey, at least i tried.

Against tomorrow

I am curious. About people. I find myself getting attracted to jerks at times. I have this edgy feeling to want to know the heart of a jerk, regardless of the things he do or don't do. It's like no matter how shit you are, there's gotta be more than just plain shit right? Because i don't think he/she was born a jerk, it doesn't work that way. Perhaps i'm also attracted to their honesty with themselves. They haven't got a profile to maintain. Anyway, it's quite stupid really. Actually, it's really stupid. I will stop here.
Oy, i realize that I am really awkward. Not in a special or good way. It doesn't help that i blush so darn easily. Guacamolesoup.
But hey! I've got chocolate now. Who needs anything else? I wouldn't mind drowning, if it's in chocolate!

I've got some goods from Germany and I'm not sharing!
Hmph!

Fishermen's friends

A day Calv and i took a walk along the 'fishing village'.
It is a fishing village you hairy man.

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

"Forget not that the earth likes to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair." - Kahlil Gibran