Life in technicolour

Stop stealing my heart away

Chances are worth taking. If you were wrong, time will heal. But what if you were right, isn't it worth it all?

Don't be afraid. Your heart is the strongest of you.

You just don't know it yet. 

Playing along the sidewalk

Today my little brother said this to me, while I was asking everyone if they were hungry because I was, though we ate at the same time; "Guys can't even lift you that's why they don't ask you out on dates." With a cookie in my mouth I replied "But I can lift them!", while flexing my muscles ( I swear I have them, it's just modestly hidden). That's when my eldest brother said "Now that's the scary part."
Well you may find this funny, so do I, but it's not suppose to be. But leave the not suppose to be to me.

My girlfriend's boyfriend asked me to arm wrestle with him, I told him to bring it on! This brings me back to the schooling days. I could never forget this one time my guy friend faked a tie with me in front of class because he knew winning was important for me. I don't think I'd be able to forget that, cause come on he is a guy, and he didn't mind bruising the ego, how very sweet. Hmm, I wonder if he'd do the same now. Because I mean, you know, I'd fake a tie for him too ;)

We feel the same things

As you know my fondness of indian bangles, I was wearing them today while at dinner at this store by the road. While eating, I decided that I'd like to give them to the two indian girls that asked me about it earlier on, they worked there. They were probably between 14-16years of age. But the thing was, I didn't know how to do it, that wouldn't make it seem like an offense. I walked over once I was done and I asked if they use such bangles, and refreshingly enough, she answered me instantly "yeah, give me two". I told her to take it all, and to divide between her sister. There were probably 12-15 bangles. We said bye then I trailed after my parents. They are made of glass, so I could feel the weight off my wrists, and I could also feel a little weight off my heart. I shall have a good week. :)

 

As you can see,this thing sucks big time. It was suppose to be 50 secs long, and not just of Daniel's screaming. :/

In the dark we steal

We try very hard to put up a front, because we think that's what others perceive as being normal. Truth is, others are waiting for your transparency so they could do the weird things they do and feel normal. Our biggest enemy is ourselves, none of us are actually weird, we're just being human.

"He who has love, is in God, and God is in him, for God is love".

Just keep me where the light is

When I was young, I would never apologize if I knew I did nothing wrong. But then later I did that thing called growing up. I am learning a lot this season through my very humanly mistakes, but maybe knowing my own rights is not as important as doing what is right? The line is rather fine, most of the time we don't see the reason in crossing in. It is one of the most difficult things to do, but it has to be done; because I am very afraid to live in a selfish world.

Heart and seek

"What women do and how they feel often have no logical connection at all."

True story, boys.

I was hoping you'd say yes

The thing is not to make yourself enough, you could never feel enough; it is to love yourself anyway.

Prometo amarle

Pssssssssst... I secretly think that I was meant to be Spanish.
Truthfully. Well, I -
1. Love the language. Por farvor Senorita!  I could say this all day long, no kidding.
2. Love pasta. (yes I realize it's Italian)
3. Love the tango, and the many other dances. (though I can't do de tango! yet)
4. Love the word Barcelona. As a matter of fact, every other Spanish sounding things/places/people
5. Love the whole setting of the country.
6. Love their Bohemian dressing.
7. Love their music.
8. And of course, I love Spanish men.

Haha, okay maybe not the last one. I prefer slightly cleaner cuts and am not cool about tight necklaces and hairy chests.
Yes, so with these, I am convinced that I was suppose to be a señora española! Noche buena mi amor :)

Stranger things have happened

My time is being robbed. Okay, maybe the only difference is I'm giving it away very willingly. To make things simpler, I am wasting time. Oh temptations!

A place in my heart

Now these are my babies; we share a very special connection.

Don't worry baby i'll be near

So, my fear of loosing loved ones has been causing me nightmares. People I love and care for are dying in my dreams; and I'd wake up because of the pain in my chest. My heart would just ache so much I'd wake up because I couldnt take it. Be it road accidents, sickness, being arrowed, being thrown off a ship; they die. I will stop freaking you out right now, by telling you a 'yo mama' joke -

Yo mama so fat people jog around her for exercise.

Shit why did I ever bothered bloggin.

We'll do it upside down inside out

There are times when we are placed in places we don't want to be or think we're not ready for it. When the road is just too steep or situations too overwhelming. Sometimes we can't help but to learn to fly.

A feast

Hey you guys, whats kicking? Besides having a very active and excited right brow that hasn't stopped twitching since last week, i've been doing goooooooooood! A few of the highlights besides my very cool eyebrow, is the fact that I've gotten the ticks for Hong Kong in June, this superb shoes that I got for free, having found a good place to study, receiving my scuba license, being finally taught how to do the butterfly the right way, spending my Sunday wrapping almost two thousand wan tons (no I do not sell wantan mee) and the return of my brother from Sipadan and the fact that I KNOW I will go there someday. I plan to work so I could just travel travel travel. That will be the bomb for me. It'll be even hotter if travelling IS my work. Anyway, again (being a tad jealous but excited) here are some beautiful, beautiful pictures. I hope it takes your breath away like it did mine. It being one of the top spots in the world, the advise is, to safe the bests for the last. Enjoy.

If you love food and travelling as much as I do, we should get married. :)

You

Never enough

(via krizahn)

I got this from my cookie jar. Damn, we need reminders like these on our walls.

On the highway

170. No, that is not my weight, but of the speed i was in, (km/h) in a car driven by my brother. I'm not saying that he's not a good driver, he is an excellent driver. But as much as I like to boast about my fondness for speed, I cannot help but to imagine the outcome if something goes wrong in that split second. Will we survive? And believe me, I've got the wildest imagination. And then there was that time when we went on that crazyassshit ride at the fun fair. *&^$^%$#  I told the Lord above, if this is the way you want me to go, so be it. Needless to say, I do not trust machines (okay mebbe i'm a wee bit of a scardy cat). Silly as this may sound, my miracle would be that road accidents never happen again. Nobody deserves to die that way. But who I am to say, He is the life giver and taker. Am I afraid of death? I don't want to be. I read this quote once by Anais Nin, "People living deeply have no fear of death". Are you afraid of death?

Hello darkness my old friend

She is the bomb.
Like big bada boom bomb.
We have friends to learn from and to share with.

Sweet and bad things

I was thinking that day about how a few of my bestfriends are from broken families, and they are such beautiful strong people. Anyway, this is gonna sound weird but I've been hearing voices and seeing things. I would hear people calling my name and thinking that I saw someone when nobody actually is there. It's like I get shadowy glances of people or something. This has been going on for a couple of days. Am I going cookoo for real? Because it's kinda cool.

Make Martinis Not War

This is one of my shirts which is badly out of shape but with this really cool saying.
I'm peacelovin'. You?

You have got to be kidding me

I was just wondering, if anyone else feels the same as i do about our local sense of humor.









I mean, come on!

ps / I would anytime rather enjoy Felicia See's adorable potatomedy! Check her out.

If you can see it then you'll understand

I'm having one of those feelings when you think there is something you're suppose to do, but just can't recall what is it. It's rather disturbing. Also feelings like:

- When you're all packed, but you keep thinking there is something you might have forgotten.
- When someone says, "I've got a surprise for you". And they make you wait.
- When you can't remember a particular name of someone or a song/ artist/ movie.
- When you get false alarms for a sneeze.
- When the soul of your feet is itchy.
- When someone tells you the end of a movie you havent watch. Or who dies, it's all the same.
- When you get mini vomits. *Got that term from How I Met Your Mother. Barney is one hilarious soab

Wanna add to the list?
Now, what is it that i hafta do.. hmmm

Its the season

Be ever ready to give love, be ever ready to forgive. Life is too short for anything else.

And for the haters,
we've got shotguns.
joke

Its about time

So let me tell you a little somethin somethin'. Life isn't always about you alone. If it was, God wouldn't have created him, her, she, it or the Jonas brothers. So take your time to listen a bit more. No matter how bad your situation is, someone else is doing even worse. And this my friends, I keep reminding myself too.

Well, this has been nice

Home

Hey you guys, just so you know, i am not happy or glad to be back, and neither did i miss home. I don't belong here and even as a kid, i just found out, that I would walk towards the sea whenever i was at the beach. I was hardly 2 years old then and remember how i used to wish that i was a mermaid? I am suppose to have fins and I belong with the fishes I am very certain of that. Anyway, we spent a week on the island! It's the longest so far, it was also due to certain unfortunate circumstances. But was i glad!
We started our journey at around 9.40pm on the 12th. Well, we went with dad's car and Russel's new second-hand Volvo. We were a bit uncertain about the durability of the car at first and well, our expectations were met at about 4.50am at Perak. All was well as we were all experienced breakdown-ers. While waiting for help from the mechanics, we took pictures and napped till bout 8 plus in the morning and then decided to have breakfast. That char siew is probably the pinkest i have ever eaten. At 1030 / 13th we continued our journey. After Greek, at bout 3pm the damn vehicle died again. My dad said the car is too old for a young driver like my brother. The boys sat in the car while it was towed to the workshop and we got a taxi after that and only reached Kuala Besut at about 8plus at night. We had our dinner then rested at Samudera motel since we missed the evening boat. 14th, freaking excited. Had our breakfast, I didn't eat too full cause I wanted to be comfortable during the boat ride. I've always loved the boat ride. Preggers sister in law was a little concerned bout the bumpy-ness though. Lucky baby dont you think. And then we reached. WE FREAKING REACHED. &!@#$%!!!!!!! After settling the luggage etc, i just stripped ( I wore my swimsuit that morning itself ) and we went to see our dive master & instructor. Me and lil bro started our course right away. The theory part made us a wee bit sleepy (you know, after all the traveling). But there was this other instructor there whom was quite a looker it was impossible to feel bored. ( I am half joking ) This is one of the evenings. There are almost 600 pictures, so it's a little difficult to choose. After the 3 days course, we did the test, passed, and got our open water diving licenses!! It was quite tiring cause we dived a few times in a day. I don't have much words to express how it feels but the underwaters is breathtaking. The feeling is just priceless. My elder brothers got their licenses a couple of years ago, so it was nice to dive with all of the boys. The rest of the days were spent diving in different locations, swimming and snorkeling in clear blue waters, sun basking, eating, volleyball, canoeing and ahhh just all the good stuff. During the evenings the boys would play volleyball with the locals, sister in law and Chelly even got their hair braided! I really am not trying to boast, writing this kills me as i remind myself of it. But that's just it, i want to remember all of this. :( I find it difficult though, am not a good diary writer. Mom was such a gem, she is still and will always be the best cook. We even had steak one of the nights! We would either dine under the trees during the afternoons or by the beach at night. There was hardly anytime to be bored as parents and bros were suddenly addicted to Gimrami, Chelly and I would lie down under the stars. Wellllllll, I gotta say, you see lovers everywhere. Evey part of the world, people are in love, falling in love, searching for love, or hoping for love. Anyway! I am not going to be sentimental now. Sissy and her collectibles - I am usually not busy when on vacation, but this time it was different in a way. The most interesting dive we did was at Sugar Wreck, i was told that it is a wrecked ship that was shipping sugar. There were sea urchins everyfreakinwhere but we saw really a lot of beautiful fishes! And huge ones! The baracudas were kinda freaky they seem to stare at you a lot. The living you see 60feet under is very different from the norm, there are times when i hafta control myself to not touch them. They just seem so.. fascinating. To be able to dive around and under a ship wreck was definitely something, though there weren't much history behind it. I hope in time, i'd be able to get an underwater casing for my cam so i could share it with you guys! Sugar Wreck was on the last day, in the morning. And then came the worse part, leaving. ..... ...when we were at Greek, I stared outside the window and waited patiently for any appearance of elephants for almost 2 hours. I was readily prepared to be overwhelmed, since bro and sarah was fortunate to have had a glimpse of them though just for a sec on the way back, the previous trip. ...
...... we got home at 5am in the morning and i went to sleep at 7am. I swear i heard waves.

Seaside inspire

I woke up a few times in the mornings with the feeling of being punched to the heart. Yes, that's the feeling you get when you loose something. I haven't been having a very good month, though i don't believe in luck. Welllllllllllllllll pumpkins, I'm very prepared to put all that aside for this island trip. I always tell people that my family is not traditional at all, we don't celebrate much. But this, seems to be becoming a very, very good family tradition. No objection to that! Sooooooo, imma leave for my second home and see you donkeys next week! Don't worry, I will definitely show you what you are gonna miss. You're most welcome :)

New York

I thought about this today, that
We should not make up our minds about someone, because that way, we leave no room for improvement.

You don't know and you never cared to know

I gave my dogs coke (i meant the drink) and yeah they didn't like it. And i actually forced open Nala's mouth to drink 100 plus cause i wanted her to like it. Anyway, did I tell you that my mom would prefer for me to be fat (or fat-ter) and ugly so that she wouldn't hafta worry about guy trouble? Well mom, fear not cause boys fear me. Hah! Muaha! Muahaha! Well, I don't really blame them actually, i find me scary at times. I mean seriously, what the heck is wrong with her? Such a freako. So yeap, this is a picture of me and a baby's hand before i ate her. Enjoy. Whatever that's left of it.

One of these days

" Aren't we just a ray of fucking sunshine."

Saturday Busking

Some pictures from the busking concert by Cross Fusion last weekend. Good times!